Petikan yg menarik

Seorang imam besar pernah menyatakan jika sesuatu itu bukan milikmu walau 1000 org yg dtg membantu ia tetap tidak akan jadi milikmu tapi jika ianya Allah tentukan untukmu walau 1000 orang yang menghalang ia tetap akan jadi milikmu.

Kidnap from my student facebook status..

Ujian2

Betul ke tak lagi banyak ujian membuatkan kita lagi kuat...kita selalu diuji secara sedar atau tidak..ujian dalam perhubungan, persahabatan, perkerjaan, mendidik anak2..as 4 me ujian boleh mematangkan kita..mengeratkan lagi hubungan...tapi kadang2 ujian2 ni boleh membuatkan kita feel very insecure..

like what has happened to me lately..sometimes we always try to think as positive as i can towards people behavior..without realizing that they just take advantage on others..i have experiencing how people can use their power just to abuse others..e.g bos kpd anak buah, lecturer kpd student or the other way...friends when they knew how vulnerable of their friends condition..how sad...but what can we do..we can't change the world with our small voice..Apa yg boleh aku buat just to pray that my action today doesn't lead me to the worst situation. I just want to help my friend and at the same time try to make me feel comfort going to the office...when thinking of this n saw his face make me want to puke..how ashamed he can did such horrible action..really lost my respect..

Semoga Allah melindungi diri ini..

Tekanan

Mengalami depression yg kronik..nak jer rasa telan org..nape la manusia ni suka make use of people untuk own benefit..mintak jauhlah jadi mcm tu..very unethical..selfish..n many more which i couldn't describe

i'm really struggling at the moment..byk keja nak kena buat..tapi as usual malas..last week just finish what they called mid-candidature..now it become compulsory..we have to present in our second year of study..n just receive an email from sv to attend one of the conf. in npvember..meaning more work..i'm promised with someone to co-author..really juggling with mix of writing purposes..how can i enjoy my holiday..but i'll definitely...the only way i can escape from work..hopefully...

how i wish can complete this on time..but i really can't..i have tried but i can't control other circumstances..the delay of reviewing etc...

i just finish doing something 4 someone which unrelated to me at all..i wish i can say no..but i couldn't..i miss my happy life..the only moment that I can enjoy now is when I'm cooking..that's the only way I can reduce the stress..but when looking at the mess after that..terrible..

Laughing with fears

why..having this burden..hidup x pernah aman..keep thinking all the time..day and night..

Thanks Kak Long and Irsyad too..

This is from Kak Long to ibu for mothers day...

Sometimes you get discouraged
Because I am so small
And always leave my fingerprint
On furniture and walls

But everyday I'm growing
I'll grown some day
And all those tiny handprints
Will surely fade away

So here's a little handprint
Just so you can recall
Exactly how my fingers looked
When I was very small

She created such a lovely card. And gave me a lot of present..Though she request the money from me..I feel so happy. Having this two kids was precious gift from God. I really proud of them. Hope they will grow up become a good person. And hope they will always remember me not only on special day. Thank kiddo...Ibu love you guys so much and will always love you..

sengal

this is d most chaotic month 4me..have a plan but never stick to it..ada sbb salah sendiri but some due to people decision...kadang2 aku cepat sgt sentap..selalu ambik hati dgn org..try to avoid but can't help it..i just can't deal with annoying people..n this month also received lot of sad happy news from Malaysia..which make me think..why i'm here..what i'm doing..is it d ticket 4 happy life...did i spend enough time with my family...i wish when i open my eyes this will end..i can't even explain how guilty i'm to my family..

Rindu Kampung Halaman

Nak balik..Bukan sebab bosan cuma miss kg so much... Really need my life back...

Soklan cepumas

Dah banyak kali org sini tanya aku..tak panas ke pakai cam ni time2 summer ni..dan ada lagi soalan kenapa ada muslim pakai tudung ada yg tak..n kenapa org muslim yg lain takyah jaga makan aku dok sibuk halal haram..dan soalan yang berikutnya tak susah ke banyak sangat peraturan nak kena follow...jawab ngan org yang tak paham mmg susah..lagi susah org yg tahu pun tak berapa nak ikut..so kena la pandai2 jawab..jawab lebih2 kan diaorg ingat aku ni terorist lak..payah gak wei...

Kepala sudah kebas

Banyak keje tak siap, keje baru menunggu.anyway itu dah jadi tanggungjawab..nak tak nak kena selesaikan..otak makin tepu..bukan sebab banyak membaca tapi tak paham apa yang dibaca..10 org yg dirujuk memberi seploh nasihat yang berlainan...adus kebas weh kepala mikir..paling penting disebabkan tumpu pada advanced reading boleh lak ai lupa basic2 thing..nak baca statistik mudah pun dah lupa...

kadang2 bila mikirkan keje bertimbun rasa nak give-up..balik keje balik..tapi memandangkan si ibu perlu memberi contoh terbaik buat anak2 segala kepayahan tu hadapi jer la..bila mengenangkan keindahan opis yg aman damai ditepian pantai rasa nak menitik air mata..teringat saat2 diwaktu petang balik keje main2 air makan2 tepi pantai ngan kak long n irsyad..weekend g breakfast kat warung ala2 pendekar atap nipah...lambat lagi la nak merasa..

apapun perlu kuat semangat..bila call famili especially mak n mother in law soalan pertama bila lagi nak balik..kesian diaorg terpaksa jauh ngan cucu. as i don't think la the existence of their parent ni prominent..

okla.need to start working again n again..hope manage to complete another task..today have kinda tight schedule from morning..to all my lovely friend especially kak han all the best..lps ni kita balik beronggeng makang kepok lekor ngan nasik minyak and roti bakor..yum,yum, yum

Happy besday Kak Long

Supposed 8 March but we celebrate a day earlier..She turn 6 and really happy with that..

Letih

Lately banyak mende menyebabkan aku letih amat..

1. letih wif supervisor..demand too much with less help...and they keep delay my work..took so long just to read my thing..sometimes try not to blame them in the midst of their busyness..but they should spend time as i'm under their responsibilities...i'm seriously in a big trouble...

2. thinking of study..all the time i keep thinking can i manage to fininsh this..got so many things to do..but i'm too lazy..should try to avoid unnecessary thing which i love to do..

3. letih sebab kerja rumah..yang ni tak baik merungut sebab hanya dengan inilah aku dapat balas pengorbanan dearie hubby n kids ikut aku datang sini...luckily if akmal tak kerja he helped doing all the cleaning..

4. letih coz keep put on weight..try to diet but not really work..hahahaha..this is all my fault..people will gobsmackingly shock to see how passionate of me about the food...i can just cook whatever I want even it already midnight....seriously should change this....

5. letih mikir why i'm toooooooooooooo lazy lately...

banyak lagi mende menyebabkan aku letih..since i'm not that good in expressing my mood, feeling or whatsoever with writing this is the only thing i could share..even since sekolah baik rendah maupun menengah aku adalah pelajar paling tak best buat karangan..sebab tu kalau org baca blog aku mesti pening kan..kata org yg check writing aku..you just jump here and there..tu la pasal aku masuk kelas menulis kat sini..malu tak..tapi demi menuntut ilmu aku tebalkan saja muka...ok la...jumpa lagi......

kak long...at school

hepi dia g skolah...kata cikgu she's a good helper...suka tolong budak2 prep..kira mcm junior la..yg tak larat ibu ngan ayah nak dgr story mory dia...anyway i'm hepi that she enjoy her school very much

Halal dan Haram

Dulu di Malaysia riuh rendah laporan tentang penipuan logo halal Jakim..maknanya Muslim consume ditipu tentang status product...the worst yg still berlegar2 dalam otak sausage usus......kembang tekak bila mengenangkannya...Alhamdulillah Allah masih kuatkan iman masyarakat melayu Malaysia wif regards makanan yang akan menjadi darah daging... bila sampai di sini agak gusar juga hati ni..how to get halal food...thank God one of the student here gave me the code. Credit to Linda. Till now still use the same reference to check the product.

Panjang lak mukadimah..sebenonya nak story how Muslim people here react when I said I only consume halal food..very particular indeed..mcm halal meat..we have to travel from like trg to kemaman just 4 beli stock..n the fast food..hanya a few yg boleh makan..but still have doubt..like 2day one of my officemate offer me her lunch..I have refused 4 so many time with different reason..though the main reason is walaupun dia muslim tapi dia belasah semua..n bila dia offer kat 2 org lagi diaorg pun main taram je.FYI my opesmet 6/7 is muslim..but its only me n linda yg jaga bab2 makan ni..i thought when we dealing wif muslim lagi senang...yg paling bes reason kalau diaorg particular sgt mcm mana nak makan kat luar..which mean all the time they have to cook..satu lagi diaorg tanya aku minum arak tak..oh my god..pening la..siap discuss yg mana sedap mana x...

pengajarannya didik la anak kita dari kecik jaga makan minum..jadi darah daging ooo...kalau dah byk masuk benda haram susah la..mudah2an kita semua dapat obey to all the halal n haram rules dalam kehidupan kita...

THREE YEARS

Selamat Hari Jadi

to anak ibu and ayah n adik kak long

Muhammad Irsyad Akmal Syafarie

26 January 2004

11.30 p.m

Something that so true.........

Got this email from umt....

VERY SHORT, MOST EFFECTIVE AND HOW TRUE...   

30 second Speech by Bryan Dyson (CEO of Coca Cola)  

"Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some 

five balls in the air. You name them - 

Work, Family, Health, Friends and Spirit and 

you're keeping all of these in the Air.  You will 

soon understand that work is a rubber ball. 

If you drop it, it will bounce back.  But the other four 

Balls - Family, Health, Friends and Spirit - are made 

of glass. If you drop one of these; they will be

 irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or 

even shattered. They will never be the same. 

You must understand that and strive for it."  

WORK EFFICIENTLY DURING OFFICE HOURS 

AND LEAVE ON TIME. GIVE THE REQUIRED TIME 

TO YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS & HAVE PROPER REST. 

but this day we keep focus on work n less care about the rest...

what a sad life..

Tahun Baru Azam ......

2010 bakal menjelma...so we just have to say good bye to 2009. the year with full of sweet and sad memories..but i really enjoy my life..up and down...memories with family and friend..typically (ayat sorang budak...) kita akan mula merangka azam baru which sometimes beyond our capability and ability. This coming new year there's no new azam for me...just to settle unsettle things..finishing my neverending work..but i really hope that i will be more focused next year.

to all my dear friends Happy New Year..semoga tahun baru memberi sinar baru dalam hidup anda..Salam.....

Dengki

Ada 2 org budak sangat dengki kat saya..cuba teka dia sapa...jeng22

Sebenarnya saya memang sangat bosan..lebih bosan dari org yang memang xder keje nak buat...bosan saya adalah sebab walaupun saya buat keje tapi keje saya tetap tak siap..atau adakah saya bosan sebab saya tak tau nak buat keje..wallahualam...

Saya sungguh bosan

Sedih n bizi

new face of my blog after being kena kutu by azrin n andoc...hehehehe..i just let them transform to this new face coz hehehehe i dun know how...nak post new story pun kena godek2 the pc for few times...hahahaha agak cuak...baru plan nak call azrin tanya how to post story...

last week my cousin turun sale for work..so bring him makan2 kat umah abang zainal+kak sofi..the whole rombongan churchill berkampung kat their house that night..back to churchill on friday night..

saturday got nothing 2 do..but ada guest coming..my friend from morwell..

sunday after having late lunch just decided to got fishing..full story in this blog...http://azaias19.blogspot.com/ ..release all stress..we manage to caught 21 fish...so monday night cook asam pedas n ikan goreng garing2...yummy gilers...

tuesday send azrin to train station..this is her last day in churchill..but she'll be around aussie until 28 dec..after that going back for good..hope she can get a good job. InsyaAllah...a bit sedih...but anyway life must goes on...after that going to the office for the hectic' day of my week...came 2 d office at 12 n only manage to sit on my chair at 4.30...perghhh...so tired..have a mix feeling happy n mcm ala2 nak hempuk org after discussion wif bith sv...

ok got to go..start my new day..agak2 ada kaitan tak tajun ngan story ni..anyway....see ya..salam

................just to share...............

Lately i feel a bit emotional..easily to stress..n sometimes cry..dunno why???not even share this wif hubby....n i bet he not even noticed....i think i'm to good in pretending like nothing is happened...but ists really nothing..i keep thinking what is my problem actually...shy to admit i think living here make me oblivious...no azan (thanks god we have islamic finder"...no ceramah agama...no friends to remind..i feel terrible...is that only me????sometimes i feel better for me to study in Malaysia...

just finish jumpa my supervisor...submit a draft of a paper...which i think the writing is really terrible...i'm not that good in that..even malay pun lingkup..ni suruh plak write in english...is anyone know ubat nak bg improve in writing...dun tell me reading other journal coz i hate that...i would choose to watch movie the whole day rather than reading...i hate that..tu la pasal i'm not knowledgable in any topic or new issues in the world....

apa sebenarnya motif aku wat posting today..i also dun no...actually i miss the sweet moment in umt...miss my colleague..my room sweet room..the food...the fresh air from the beach...feel like going back home...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa